AHAHAH oh no I'm sorry for laughing- it's relatable. Like I've heard stories about people like when meeting famous people (I'm thinking youtubers here lol) they tell them their whole life story and how the person saved their life so it's not weird. Usually the person is touched that they were able to help someone so much. And I reckon since they're psychs they wouldn't feel weird about it but more happy that people listening weren't feeling so alone? I don't think I've done that but definitely I've done the crying thing as I said. And I don't watch youtube nowadays because I got freaked out by my own attachment 🤣
Don't feel ashamed though, desperate times call for desperate measures, right?
Okay I'm going to overshare now so buckle up. I hope no one finds out who I am ahhh. Also possible *TW***
I used to download the music that some youtubers made (this was in late high school), play it on repeat and feel like I wasn't so alone. Like the same couple of songs on repeat. And I would freaking cry when I was finally able to listen to my music after feeling alone all day 🤣 Like my friends would tell me I was being rude for listening to music but it was the ONLY thing keeping me alive 😭
Literally idk what was wrong with me back then but I was so dissociated that I thought nothing was real like my parents didn't seem like my parents and I couldn't even recognise myself in the mirror I was so out of it. But the music I'd listen to is SO SO cringy and if I hear it now I shudder HAHAHAHAHA
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