Hey @MB95 firstly you don't need to apologise for reaching out! I'm sorry to hear that things are so tough with your family. Family stuff can be really complicated- on the one hand we can love our family and want to protect them and on the other hand they can know just how to push our buttons! It's okay to be angry or upset at your family. I've had times in the past where I thought my family didn't care about me and was really angry and worried about what I might do. It's normal to have big emotions like this and it can happen especially when we're used to keeping everything in. It can feel like our emotions are out of proportion but really they've been building and building. I can relate a bit to not wanting to share with a support person about family- I felt like I was the bad guy and everything was my fault but also kind of blamed my parents for a lot it was weird. Anyway it kind of prevented me from talking about it too. Mental health supports have heard it all though, and know they're are many sides to a story and that we can love people but be angry at them.
That really sucks your mum said hurtful things about your mental health... It can feel so invalidating and hurtful when people use something you've shared with them against you
Ugh I'm sorry things are so much- it all sounds so confusing, upsetting and exhausting. I'm glad you reached out cause sometimes it can help to vent about this stuff. Are you feeling safe at the moment? Are you feeling angry atm or just really frustrated? Cause I know I would be pretty angry right now if I was in your position? If you're feeling angry is it manageable? It's understandable to want to SH to let out some of these painful emotions and can be a way of being able to become more 'composed' but yeah it can also be unhelpful in many other ways.. But it makes sense and is a way of coping. Is there anything else you could do to let out these emotions in a safer way? Personally I find ripping up paper and screaming into a pillow helpful, but everyone is different. Sorry if this is a bit late a response to help I realise you said this 4 hours ago so things have probably changed a bit now. How are you going now?
