@Lost_Space_Explorer5 I completely understand, it can be really horrifying saying all of your worst fears out loud to another person, especially when they make you feel like a bad person. Is there anything you can think of that would make talking to your psychologist about your thoughts easier?
I personally have lashed out like crazy at all of my family members, and I used to withdraw a lot from my sister. It used to be so bad that I couldn't even touch her or talk to her on the phone, which really hurt our relationship. Sometimes I feel so guilty when I take out my frustrations on the people I love because of my OCD, but I try to be kind to myself and remind myself that it's part of dealing with the mental illness and they understand. Does your family know that this is something that you're struggling with?
Thanks @Lost_Space_Explorer5 ! I decided to go into psychology because of my experiences with my own OCD specialist. He made me feel so supported when I disclosed all of my wildest obsessions to him, and I want to be able to do that for other people. OCD is such a misunderstood illness, so I'm really feeling for you at the moment. I can honestly say that talking to people candidly about my obsessions and compulsions and finding a good therapist to walk me through exposure therapy has changed my life, and I could not be happier or mentally healthier than I am today. Trust me when I say it can get better, and while it may not seem like it right now, OCD can become a liveable condition rather than a constant nightmare. Hang in there ❤️
