Hey @MB95, I can hear that you are doing a lot of reflecting on what life used to be like for you and that this is making you feel lost and confused. I am sorry that it has also left you feeling guilty and worthless, that must be really hard. I don't know what things were like before but it comparison, it seems like you might be going through a particularly difficult period right now. So, I don't blame you for feeling stuck or like things aren't what you had planned. I know a lot of people who feel that way as life rarely goes to plan and things can change along the way. These thoughts can be tough to sit with, so I am wondering how can you help keep things from getting dark again tonight?
Btw, I was about to respond to your email but saw your post and thought it'd be better for me to respond here 
