Your volunteering thing sounds so cool! I'm glad you enjoyed it today 😊 And that you got out for a walk! Did you come across anything exciting?
Please don't worry about me. I am not okay but I'm okay if that makes sense? Lol I'm a tough bitch so I'll be fine I'm sure. I'm just maxed out and at my limit and struggling to not give up but I am trying my hardest to stay safe and not do anything stupid so you dont need to worry. I promise I am trying what I can. And you guys are the reason I am trying so fucking hard right now. You give me a reason to stay so thank you. 💙
Dont be sorry for a second! The fact you're even drawing me a picture means everything to me. I may have possibly got teary when I saw your message this arvo cause I was just really low and well yeah it just touched me that someone would even think of doing something like that for me and reminded me that I have people like you guys in my life. Well for a few more days anyway 😔 I don't really know to be honest. I was told 2wks that day I made the goodbye thing and I feel like I've already gone over that but idk, I can't keep track of days atm but I feel like it's been longer? Who knows. I feel like maybe they are being nice cause they know my uni thing finishes on Friday too but idk. I have just kinda set myself to the end of this week cause I am trying really hard to do the right thing by them because they are trying really hard to help me and yeah I don't want to ruin it and have them hate me too so I'm just trying my best and figured that I maze well rip the bandaid off completely and say goodbye to everyone at the same time rather than the uni thing and then you guys. Idk now I'm rambling sorry! But let's just say end of this week? As much as I obviously don't want too but I know and understand and totally respect I have too. It just SUCKS BALLS. I hope that's enough time? Please don't be stressing about it though!! I am sure we can work something out. And don't be worried about triggering me. Everything seems to be a trigger these days so you're safe, it's just become part of the norm 😂
I feel like I do need to apologise though because I keep screwing everything up and not being there for the people I should be and anywayyyy I'm sorry for rambling!!!
But thank you for just being you. Honestly lost. I'm going to miss you SO MUCH!!!! 🦥💙💔
