Yeah I know. This fucking sucks. I almost feel like just staying this next week cause nothing has really been said about me still being here past the 2wks I was told but I also don't wanna push my luck cause the staff have been trying really hard to help support me atm so I just don't wanna ruin that and do the wrong thing after they have been so nice but yeah. It just sucks so much and anyway I just wish it wasn't happening but I don't really know how to feel about it because I just feel so fucking numb right now that I can't feel and I don't know how I should be feeling and I'm really sorry for that. I promise I am sad about this and I am going to miss you more than you'll ever know but I just don't really know how to show or feel any of that right now because I feel so dead inside and completely shut down so I'm really sorry.
What are you up to tonight? I was just thinking, should we watch the first episode of Chicago Med together so we can watch some of it with @Eden1717? Or we could watch a movie or play games or something? Idk. I don't really know how to do this sorry. I feel like neither of us really know how to or what to say and I just wanna spend time with you guys before I go if we can but I also get it if you don't want too! I also don't have much in me atm so yeah we can see how we go maybe? Idk. This just sucks and I feel really weird.
