Hey @Eden1717 no need to say sorry! It sounds like you're going through a lot, and sometimes it's good to give yourself time to process it.
When you feel like things are unmanageable, I can imagine it's hard to come here and talk about it. I'm glad you could update us last night, though, because we care about what's going on in your life.
It's so upsetting when showering etc., is hard to manage. When I go through those rough patches, I remind myself that part of the reason it's so hard is that I want to take care of myself on some level - I just don't always have the energy or support to do it.
You mentioned that a big part of you wants to disappear, and if you're comfortable sharing, I wanted to ask what keeps you going when you feel like that?
