Hi @Feefee , reading your story I could feel the pain and confusion you are going through right now. I'm sorry to hear that things are so difficult and that you feel like you will struggle with love because of this. I wanted to say that you sound very strong and resilient. I really admire how you know that it's best to move on from this uncertainty for your own wellbeing. It shows that you have a strong sense of what you need in your relationships and that's something to be proud of.
I don't know much about this situation, but I know of many instances when someone has lost feelings in a relationship, and it's almost always more to do with them than anything you did wrong. Sometimes the other person misjudges their own feelings. Sometimes they might even realise that they can't match your level of love and generosity. For a friend of mine that went through this recently, they got closure by asking why the person hadn't told them earlier that they couldn't continue the relationship, because that was the thing that made them feel the most undervalued. I'm not sure if talking in more detail about the reasons behind the breakup would help you to get closure here?
I also wanted to say that you don't need to feel okay immediately, or even for a while. A year is a really long time to know someone and it takes time to adapt to moving on. Breakups are a kind of loss and it's okay to grieve them. Is there anyone else in your life who you can talk to about how hurt you're feeling?
