Hi @Philippa-RO I have been feeling this way for the past 5 years, but it's gotten progressively worse. I've lost interest in most of the things I used to love like drawing and meeting up with friends. Life feels really meaningless.
The following might be triggering so I put it under a spoiler tag. Feel free to edit it if needed. Also I should mention beforehand that I am safe right now and I am taking steps to improve my mental health, so please don't worry. To answer your question, the thoughts I've having are
about suicide. Sometimes I don't see the point of continuing if this is all life is - lonely, boring, painful, and scary. But like I said, taking steps to improve my mental health and don't think I would actually do it.
In terms of support, my family live really close by and I see them regularly - but it's not something I can really talk about with them. They have allowed me to stay in the apartment I am in at the moment, so I don't want to let them down.
I do have some old friends which I contact every now and then. But because I have moved around a lot, and am having trouble with new friendships (explained above) I don't have any friends near where I am now.
I am currently trying to get a mental health plan from a GP. I have booked an appointment but it's more than a week away and I'm not too hopeful. I've tried in the past to get a mental health plan, but it was so difficult and time-consuming that I gave up.
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