Hi @hopeful_24 !
You truly embody your username. It's hard to have gone through what you have but you have made it this far and you are going to make it further. Reading this post honestly gave me hope and motivation to keep pushing through the dark and difficult times.
I absolutely love your attitude for this year and even though you're not in the best of places right now, know that you have a community here ready to support you.
I also love Hayao Miyazaki and his work on spirited away. That quote you gave is the first time I've heard of it but it's beautiful.