@Anzelmo the way you worded this reply with a lot of conviction really helped me. I had to sit with everyone's replies for a little while until now, I'm able to accept the truth of what everyone is saying. my job has a lot of good points so it's hard to let it go, especially because I have been really judging myself for not being able to hack it. I didn't really believe that ADHD and/or mental health was a valid excuse. But ADHD is a real disability, and this is not the first time I wasn't able to achieve something I wanted to achieve, or thought I should be able to achieve, due to becoming overwhelmed. So I realised that you're right. If I don't look after myself this time, that's just going to keep happening, and I won't be able to live a happy life to my fullest potential.
Lately I have been spending a lot of time with my siblings which is a nice distraction. Also, I've been thinking about all the dreams for the future I had when I was a kid /teen. As I got older I started to think there was something 'weak' about me that was always going to limit me from getting or enjoying those things that I wanted, so I stopped wanting them. now I'm trying to go back to that mindset from when I was little, when I believed I could do anything 🙂
Thanks so much for your reply 🙂
