Hi @Akinna
Firstly, please know that you can take your time replying. While we absolutely love to hear from you, there is no pressure to quickly respond here ❤️
Secondly, thank you for your incredibly insightful and reflective posts! I'm sure many people can relate to your thoughts about receiving treatment, and difficulties with giving yourself permission to care for yourself. I'm reading that you're feeling very conflicted. On the one hand, you think you don't deserve treatment and you are afraid of change as you are used to/ comfortable with your negative emotions. However, on the other hand, you no longer want to feel this way, and you also want to feel better for your parents, which also comes with a sense of pressure.
I must say, I think it is great that you are talking so openly and honestly on here. I'm guessing doing this must be somewhat difficult, as you have stated that you find sharing these things difficult. The more you talk about these things, the easier it will become for you. So this is actually very good practice, and I just wanted to point out the amazing job that you are doing to try and better your situation and overcome these obstacles along the way.
We are here with you along the way ❤️.
