Hi @Leafy22
It must be so difficult to have issues affecting several areas of your life at the one time 😞. I'm reading that questions about your sexuality are adding a lot of stress to your life at the moment. It's understandable that you are feeling overwhelmed by all of this, and you are not alone in feeling overwhelmed with the idea of trying to figure out your sexuality.
I just wanted to say that sometimes people get into this trap of trying to have all the answers about their sexuality, that not knowing this causes them a lot of stress. If this is the case with you, then I thought I'd raise that it is actually okay to not know all the answers yet. Sometimes, figuring these sorts of things out can take a while, and that is okay. It might be helpful to label your sexuality something like 'unsure for now' or 'still figuring it out' or 'TBC (to be confirmed)', instead of trying to figure out whether you are gay vs. lesbian vs. bisexual vs. asexual vs. other. ❤️ In other words, try and practice some acceptance around not knowing and trust that you will figure out sooner or later. What do you think?
I know you said you don't have many people you trust, but have you considered takling to a mental health professional, such as the school counselor? or contacting Kids Helpline? Such professionals are bound by the ethical rule/regulation of confidentiality, which means they cannot talk to others about what you have spoken about, which might help you to feel more trusting towards them.
