Thank you so much @Iona_RO you have no idea how much this chat has helped me already. It gave me a burst of strength to get some chores done, which I haven't been able to do lately. I hope I can be like you and get to a point where I'm managing these 3 conditions. I have a friend with the same thing and I'm pretty sure my mum as well, and they really scare and depress me, because they both struggle to cope just as much as I do. So I don't have a role model to show me that it will be ok one day. I am not sure what the ok will look like or how to get there, I have to just believe in it, and that's getting really hard. So I'm really glad to hear from you and that you understand the merry-go-round feeling. The merry-go-round is really intense. This could be the ADHD talking, but on the merry-go-round, all the strategies I've ever heard for feeling better just end up contributing to the chaos, like a hundred voices saying "you have to get up" "do self care" "you have to breathe" "one thing at a time" "go outside" "defuse your thoughts" a hundred times and all at once. It's like those voices are shaming me for not having enough willpower to fix myself by doing what I should. But of course it's hard to implement strategies when all 3 disorders make it hard to do anything at all. I have the psychiatrist on July 29 so I'm really lucky the waiting is almost over. I will write down some points but I also wish the psychiatrists told us in advance what they will be asking about!! Or sent out a video introduction of themselves, or something! They just make you walk into the unknown ☹️
I think that's a good idea, it's just I find it really hard to be proud of myself for anything. I had really high expectations for myself and my life when I was younger, so when I look at how I have turned out I just find it sad. Do you think I could cultivate some pride somehow?
