Thank you for getting back to us @Salmon_Cod. I know how hard it can be to open up about things like this, so I just want to say well done for being brave and for sharing so much with us.
I'm sorry to hear that you're going through this right now, that must be really hard. It sounds like such a challenging situation to be in, especially as you are having to manage it all on your own. You mentioned earlier that you had come across this information in a 'not so ethical means', so I was just wondering if maybe you would feel comfortable sharing more about this?
I am also wondering if maybe it might be helpful to set some boundaries about this. Is this something you have ever talked to your girlfriend about? Having certain boundaries in a relationship can be really important as they help us feel safe and more comfortable with the people around us. If you would like to have a bit more of a read about it, I found this great article here that explains what its about and what you can do to create them.
I also saw that you said you were a horrible person, but I just want to say that no one is perfect and the fact that you have ackowledged this and are working to make things better is huge and shows just how strong and determined you are as a person.
Talking to your school counsellor sounds like a great idea though, sometimes it can be really helpful to talk to someone who can help you create strategies and ways of working through this. Is there something you could do to make meeting the counsellor a little bit easier on you, whether it be writing things down or taking a stres ball with you?
After such a stressful day, I am wondering if there is there something nice you can do for yourself tonight to help you take your mind off things?
