Hey @HappyPain
Thank you for reaching out on the forums.
Firstly, I want to acknowledge the work you've been doing on improving your emotions and mental health. As many may tell you, recovery and improvement in your mental health aren't linear. There will be ups and downs, but that doesn't take away AT ALL from any of the progress you made prior to the 'down' times. I'm really proud of you for the willingness and motivation you have to make sure you're feeling better. It seems you know when you need some extra help and support and recognising that in the first place can be hard for many - so well done!
As for your current situation, it definitely seems like a difficult one to be in, but @Blake_RO said something I think is really important. You are not responsible for your friend's mental health. Of course, it's difficult to leave someone who's also struggling because it can make you feel unwanted emotions like guilt, but you may have heard on planes before, "you have to put your oxygen mask on first before helping others". Your mental health comes first. That way, you can better help others in the future.
It's so great that you've recognised the friendship you've developed isn't healthy, and that you can see it's not been impacting you in a positive way. And that's ok! Sometimes, it's not the right time for specific people to enter your life.
Regarding your friend, I think it's important that your friend gets professional help and forms a safety plan for herself. Do you know if she already gets that? And who is currently living with her, if anyone is?
I hope you're able to feel better soon 💙 Look after yourself and treat yourself this week. Do something fun or relaxing if you can.
