Hi @fishyie
I'm so sorry to hear you've been struggling with this, and it sounds like it's been really difficult. I totally get what you mean about journalling- I journal too but sometimes I want to feel like I'm talking to someone real too. I relate so much to what you said about taking some time off work and feeling guilty about it- I think that the negative self talk in our head makes it hard to do that peacefully. I just wanted to let you know that taking this time (and maybe some more time off if you need) will mean that you can replenish your fuel and focus on self-care and your own well-being so that you can be more present and positive at work. I know its difficult, but when I'm feeling burnt out, sometimes taking a break is actually the first step I take to heal.
I'm sorry that work has been so difficult. Working in mental health can definitely be exhausting and I want to remind you that you are so brave and resilient for working in such a demanding field! When we feel low and burnt out we often forget our hobbies and passions. Some things I like to do is to play the piano, listen to music and spend time in nature- things that make me happy and remind me that my well-being should always be a priority.
You said that your mother was contributing to this stress- is there any way you could have a conversation with her about how her actions are negatively impacting you? Maybe if she knew then that would help.
Here to talk xx
