@Tiny_leaf emotional abuse does suck. It's sad that you've had to endure it throughout all these years and that your parents keep making excuses. If you can't talk to your parents, Is there anyone else you could reach out to? ... View more

@Tiny_leaf hope you're able to find your way into headspace. Remember we are here to support you. You will get through this I promise <3. Things are never as dark as they seem. ... View more

@Tiny_leaf I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling so low. I've been through the mental health system, it's sad how some professionals are dodgy. It took me a while I settle down for a my current psychiatrist. I've seen so many professionals. It's hard to feel dishearten if it doesn't seem to work. I don't think you're beyond being helped, I think you just haven't found what works for you. and that's okay, it can take a while. It is also possible. I don't know if I've asked you before, but have you ever considered seeing another health professional? ... View more

Hey @scared01 :). I'm alright, just a bit tired. Was having bad migraines constantly for a few days, being exhausted is probably expected. Hope you are doing well. ... View more

neg: I have tons of readings do do and been procrastinating pos: it's okay I can catch up on the weekend. I had a busy day yesterday so it's okay I feel really tired. I'm not human at the end of the day. neg: my head feels sore. I'm so tired of living with chronic pain. pos: it's not the worst at least. I probably just need some rest. ... View more

I've been on RO on and off lately. @Tiny_leaf how are you doing now? Hope you're doing alright. ... View more

@scared01 sorry to hear you didn't find headspace helpful. Have you tried contacting any other helpline? Hope you are feeling better today <3 ... View more

@Bre-RO I just do regular self-care stuff like listening to music, taking a warm shower, praying etc. I've been trying to write but my mind is completely blocked. I guess I'm out of habit of writing. Maybe I need to stick with it a bit longer. @MisoBear I'm doing okay at the moment. When I do feel overwhelmed, I could start off by saying I'm stressed and overwhelmed. It's a pretty normal thing for uni students. ... View more

@MisoBear sorry for the late reply. I probably could have come on earlier than today, I was pretty much free (uni just started this week), but I don't know where the days we're going. I'll just sit there ruminating. Loneliness, shame and anxiety can be overwhelming. I'm just talented at shutting myself out from the world and bottling emotions up. But I guess that's expected if you've grew up with very few friends and were bullied in school. At the end of the day I've accepted the fact I'm alone, we are born alone and die alone. We are all just broken people, some of us being better at hiding it than others. I don't know how you can remain whole and innocent in a world like this one. I feel there is no single person I can really talk to and release it all. I don't want to have to rely on anyone either. Maybe some battles are meant to be lonely ones. ... View more

@xXLexi_Lou122Xx I can be pretty awful with eating too. It's bad for my migraines. But I agree with @MisoBear it does help to have snacks. My mum ensures I leave with food when I go to uni. I think it's amazing how you want to be psych. I'm study psych here, it's a long road, but I think it is a rewarding one. I think society needs more people like you. ... View more

@Maddy-RO it does help to come on. I often feel so exhausted to really talk about what is going on. But I know how important it is to talk. Suppressing emotions has become a habit of mine. @MisoBear uni can be tough, it's hard to not fall under the pressure. I hope it works out well for you. Uni can be challenging when you're not feeling the best. I had to undertake part time for that reason. I don't think I'm in the right state to complete my coursework and thesis. I'll leave the joy of writing up my thesis for next yr. I need to work on my physical and mental health. I think it does help to try to connect to people. Come on forums, socialise with friends and family. ... View more

@Tiny_leaf I wish some doctors we happy with hearing constructive feedback from the patient. There are some not so great professionals as well as good professionals. Good professionals should be open to feedback. ... View more

@Charlie-29-1999 sometimes it takes a few tries to find something that works. Talking to your psychiatrist sounds like a good starting point. I've seen various mental health professionals and not all of their methods suited me. It might not only be about using one type of therapy but various in combination. Hope it all goes well. ... View more

@scred01 I haven't been on much. I hope you are recovering up well. How are you feeling now? ... View more

@Saltwaterdreamtime I'm sorry to hear you're having a rough time. It can be hard when you feel as though you have nobody to turned to. Have you ever reached out to a helpline? Or spoken to you GP about seeing a psychologist? Remember you do matter. I hope you feel better soon <3. ... View more

@Taylor-RO and @MisoBear sorry for late response. It's all good @MisoBear, hope you feel better soon <3. Didn't feel up to replying until now. Even now, I felt reluctant on coming here. Chronic pain is so exhausting I don't know where my day goes. I'm so used to be alone it feels somewhat easy and uneasy at the same time. Loneliness feels really normal for me. It's the road I've known for so long it hard to walk away. That I've had moments in my life I was lonely but didn't realise I was. I can talk to my KHL counsellor about balancing being too self-reliant and too independent as well as the disconnection I feel so often. My psychiatrist appointment is next month. I can call KHL in the meantime. ... View more

@MisoBear I know I'm a little late in replying. But my feelings of detachment interfere with my ability to talk to others or reach out. Socialising feels like a chore. I feel so distant from others that trying to connect with others feels useless. I mean I'm still going to feel hollow and alone at the end of the day. It's been a little strange. Like I don't feel real. My memories don't feel real and nor are they eliciting any strong emotions (which feels a little unusual). I'm on medication for migraines. I've gotten the flu shot, but it has really prevented me from getting sick. My sleep hasn't always been great lately. But I'm sleeping alright now. ... View more

@xXLexi_Lou122Xx sorry to hear you have been feeling unwell. I hope you feel better soon. Take it easy, feeling unwell does wear you physically and mentally. Braiding hair sounds nice. I haven't braided me hair for so long. Make sure you get lots of rest and fluids. How are you feeling now? ... View more

@MisoBear I think it might be something I can try. Meanwhile, I think I've just been really exhausted and need to recharge. I also need to figure a way around improving my immune system before next semester. Chronic pain can wear you out physically and mentally. I've had way too many awful migraines and been getting cold/flu symptoms far too often this year. ... View more

@MisoBear I was able to chill today. Just focused on self-care. Hope uni went well. ... View more

@TOM-RO I do feel like I've been taken advantage of in the past. I find it hard to turn to people when I'm struggling. I suppose I'm just finding ways I can cope with my difficult emotions to improve my resilience and independence. @MisoBear I'm feeling better today. I spoke to my KHL counsellor yesterday, that helped. I don't feel ready to talk to friends and family yet. ... View more

@Bee hope you feel better soon. neg:random phone call work me up early pos:I feel exhausted but I don't have many plans for today so I can take it easy. At least I went to bed last night. neg:still feeling congested pos:there is definitely an improvement from yesterday ... View more

@Tiny_leaf glade it went okay. I just hope it works out for you. Sometimes it can be hard when the GP wants to do the bare min. ... View more

@Tiny_leaf my ankle is alright. I just have balance issues. I've always been really clumsy though. It's great you found a chiro that works for you. Unfortunately, there are both good and bad practitioners. There is a lot of dodgy pseudoscience out there. ... View more

@Tiny_leaf hope the appointment goes well. ... View more

@Tiny_leaf I got my resistance band from physio when I went for my bad ankle. But as @WheresMySquishy said you can get it from other places. I hope you feel better emotionally and physically. ... View more

@TOM-RO @WheresMySquishy being empathetic feels like a curse and a blessing. I'm learning to trust to gut instinct. It's hard to trust my mind sometimes, but I guess I need to remind myself my feelings and experiences are real. I often find myself stuck within myself. I did not realise how lonely and lost I was until a few months ago. Then it came back. I started feeling detached, I became an invisible ghost. There is nobody I can really turn to and let it out. Sometimes I wish I could go backwards to an easier time. But you can only go forwards. When I'm with people I feel like a completely different person. I may appear I have my life together. When I'm not stuck in my thoughts I do not feel like I'm drowning. Maybe I'm also afraid of giving people the impression I'm unhappy. ... View more

I guess I'm just used to being alone. It's what I've known. I'm used to keeping my emotions bottled up. I'm used to suppressing emotions, and becoming overwhelmed when I could no longer contain them. I had very few friends growing up. Was bullied when I was in school. I've always been an outcast. I find it hard to allow myself to be vulnerable by reaching out. I hate feeling weak and fragile. It gives other people a reason to invalidate me, emotionally exploit my vulnerabilities. I attract the wrong sort of people. Being a nice person is hard because people take kindness for granted. On top of that I'm prone to feeling guilty, someone can easily make me feel guilty after they emotionally exploit me. I'm not a punching bag. I hate it when people try to control me, I'm not a puppet. I hate it when people play mind games, I'm not a doll. I just want to be treated like a person. Though it seems easier to isolate myself from people because I feel safe in this secure little bubble. ... View more