@Esperanza97 <3. I haven't really been up to much this weekend. Feeling really exhausted and drained. My head also feels heavy. I'm finding it hard to be productive. It's hard to concentrate when I've been getting frequent migraines and been feeling anxious. Then again, I only have one exam left for this semester, and I have more than a month to study for it. Just doing to the normal routine things. Like listening to reading, music, praying, watching tv etc. Though I probably should find something less intensive to focus on now. Maybe I'll try to find something psych related to listen to while I lie in bed so I don't feel guilty about being unproductive. ... View more

@Erin-RO yeah I think I'm trying to compensate by focusing on things I can control. I've been able to contact the Butterfly Foundation. It did help to talk to someone about it. I'll probably speak to my psychiatrist when I get back from holidays. ... View more

@Jay-RO unfortunately my sleep was disturbed again. neg: I'm so sleepy and my head hurts. pos: I'm taking it easy today. I'll go to bed early. Relax with essential oil. Probably message my temples a little. ... View more

@Erin-RO I have called helplines in the past, haven't done so for a long time. I could when I get the chance to. I think my issue is in the past I felt as though I had little control over certain life events. I've become so obsessed with control. That I strive for perfection, I feel I ought to be a perfect person, like a perfect daughter, friend, sister etc. I'm hard on myself when I don't do as well at uni as I would like to. I know I need to learn to not be so hard on myself. My mental health and physical health has compromised my performance. My health is always another worry on my mind. I also feel as though I need to look perfect. I obsess over flaws e.g. blemishes on my face, how my hair just doesn't look right. I feel so vain to even admit it. I'm overly concerned with what I eat, I have to eat the right proportion of food, I have to eat the right food because I'm afraid of gaining weight. I'm also afraid of the adverse effects of certain food on my health. I feel like my brain just doesn't stop. It's like I'm trying to prove to myself I'm worth it, I'm trying to heal my broken soul. But I know achieving perfection is not realistic. But that doesn't stop be from striving towards it. ... View more

neg:feeling overwhelmed pos: feeling a bit less overwhelmed. listening to some music. neg: I didn't feel very well rested when I woke up this morning. Had a really bad migraine upon wakening. pos: I've been focusing on self-care. ... View more

@Taylor-RO and @someone123 I'm afraid my GP and psychiatrist won't understand. I suppose I don't really feel comfortable, but I don't really feel comfortable talking to anyone about it. I haven't really spoken to anyone about it for a while. I know I should but I find myself avoiding it. I always say I'll talk about it later. Tell myself it's not a good time at the moment. I'm used to walking alone. I'm used to being lonely. I'm afraid of being needy and vulnerable. I do nothing hoping time will heal the wounds, but it doesn't go away. I find myself making the same mistakes. But you can only ignore the pain for so long. I am afraid of being forever broken. I'm not sure if I can mend my heart. ... View more

@Bee you're an amazing and supportive person <3 ... View more

@someone123 and @Libellule I spoke to my parents about it a while back, they don't really know how to help. I do know someone who might be able to understand it better, but I haven't gotten around to it. Talking about it is anxiety provoking too. @ecla34 I do see my GP and psychiatrist often. They know I suffer from anxiety, but I haven't told them everything. I don't think I could. Thanks for the support <3 ... View more

@DruidChild how are you feeling now? ... View more

@Chocolatefeather1 I used to self-harm. You're not alone. Sometimes it does take a while to find what works for you. Definitely look at the resources @Jay-RO provided you. Sending you virtual hugs <3. ... View more

neg: been feeling really anxious lately. pos: I'm listening to some positive music right now, I am feeling better. @redhead hope you're ok. Sending you virtual hugs <3. ... View more

You have an awesome username @N1ghtW1ng. ... View more

neg: feeling really exhausted and a bit achy pos: I have more time to focus on self-care now that I am done with uni assessments. ... View more

@cemetarygirl332 I feel you. I think a lot of us feel alone and lost. I hope you remember, we are always here for you. Would you like to talk about the feeling of alone-ness? <3. Sending virtual hugs. ... View more

@gina-RO I finished all my assignments and completed my exam. It wasn't easy, but I got through it. @cemetarygirl332 it hard. I do hope it gets easier for you <3 ... View more

1. Messaged my head 2. Took a relaxing shower 3. Watched tv with my mum ... View more

@Eden1717 hope you're doing alright. You are strong, you can get through this. Remember we are here for you <3. Sending you virtual hugs. ... View more

@Asche the concept of mindfulness is familiar for me, though I can explore relaxation/stress/mindfulness exercise in more depth during my next appointment. I can one of the biggest issues I had was I was trying to resist the pain, I still feel anxious, but not as much. And its been a little easier to focus on uni. It's that time of semester, everything is due. ... View more

@litgym Paramore is awesome! How are you doing now? ... View more

Neg: I have a bad headache. I think I’ve come down with something Pos: I think I’ll take a warm shower and relax a bit Neg: I’ve been incredibly unproductive lately Pos: it’s okay I can catch up on uni. ... View more

@gina-RO I’ve been giving it a lot of thought. I know typically in therapy people talk about trauma in detail, but I have found I can easily become so focused on it after talking to friends and family. I prefer to take a different approach, like learning to relax, learning to accept, coming back into the present, and finding hope in my faith. ... View more

@gina-RO @annabethxchase thank you for the support :) <3 . I guess it’s a wake up call. I’m studying abnormal psychology, it can be really overwhelming, but I’ve been aware of the anxiety for a long time. I could write about it, try to find safety in my Faith, being spiritual does help. But it does terrify my that I don’t have as much control as I would like to. It’s hard to be in a situation where one feels so trapped. I used to see a psychologist but I discontinued seeing her because I hit a dead end. It’s not that it didn’t help, it was no longer helping. My psychiatrist has suggested that he could refer me to a psychologist if I feel uncomfortable talking about it. The issue is I feel uncomfortable talking to anyone. And when I have discussed it in the past with family and friends, I was on the edge afterwards. ... View more

Neg: life feels so overwhelming. I’m stressing over uni and worrying about honours Pos: I need to take it a day at a time, I do seem to be doing better in my psych unit this semester than last semester Neg: my head burns, I still have a migraine Pos: it’s better than it was yesterday. ... View more