@Erin-RO yeah I think I'm trying to compensate by focusing on things I can control. I've been able to contact the Butterfly Foundation. It did help to talk to someone about it. I'll probably speak to my psychiatrist when I get back from holidays. ... View more

@Jay-RO unfortunately my sleep was disturbed again. neg: I'm so sleepy and my head hurts. pos: I'm taking it easy today. I'll go to bed early. Relax with essential oil. Probably message my temples a little. ... View more

@Erin-RO I have called helplines in the past, haven't done so for a long time. I could when I get the chance to. I think my issue is in the past I felt as though I had little control over certain life events. I've become so obsessed with control. That I strive for perfection, I feel I ought to be a perfect person, like a perfect daughter, friend, sister etc. I'm hard on myself when I don't do as well at uni as I would like to. I know I need to learn to not be so hard on myself. My mental health and physical health has compromised my performance. My health is always another worry on my mind. I also feel as though I need to look perfect. I obsess over flaws e.g. blemishes on my face, how my hair just doesn't look right. I feel so vain to even admit it. I'm overly concerned with what I eat, I have to eat the right proportion of food, I have to eat the right food because I'm afraid of gaining weight. I'm also afraid of the adverse effects of certain food on my health. I feel like my brain just doesn't stop. It's like I'm trying to prove to myself I'm worth it, I'm trying to heal my broken soul. But I know achieving perfection is not realistic. But that doesn't stop be from striving towards it. ... View more

neg:feeling overwhelmed pos: feeling a bit less overwhelmed. listening to some music. neg: I didn't feel very well rested when I woke up this morning. Had a really bad migraine upon wakening. pos: I've been focusing on self-care. ... View more

@Taylor-RO and @someone123 I'm afraid my GP and psychiatrist won't understand. I suppose I don't really feel comfortable, but I don't really feel comfortable talking to anyone about it. I haven't really spoken to anyone about it for a while. I know I should but I find myself avoiding it. I always say I'll talk about it later. Tell myself it's not a good time at the moment. I'm used to walking alone. I'm used to being lonely. I'm afraid of being needy and vulnerable. I do nothing hoping time will heal the wounds, but it doesn't go away. I find myself making the same mistakes. But you can only ignore the pain for so long. I am afraid of being forever broken. I'm not sure if I can mend my heart. ... View more

@Bee you're an amazing and supportive person <3 ... View more

@someone123 and @Libellule I spoke to my parents about it a while back, they don't really know how to help. I do know someone who might be able to understand it better, but I haven't gotten around to it. Talking about it is anxiety provoking too. @ecla34 I do see my GP and psychiatrist often. They know I suffer from anxiety, but I haven't told them everything. I don't think I could. Thanks for the support <3 ... View more

@DruidChild how are you feeling now? ... View more

@Chocolatefeather1 I used to self-harm. You're not alone. Sometimes it does take a while to find what works for you. Definitely look at the resources @Jay-RO provided you. Sending you virtual hugs <3. ... View more

neg: been feeling really anxious lately. pos: I'm listening to some positive music right now, I am feeling better. @redhead hope you're ok. Sending you virtual hugs <3. ... View more

You have an awesome username @N1ghtW1ng. ... View more

neg: feeling really exhausted and a bit achy pos: I have more time to focus on self-care now that I am done with uni assessments. ... View more

@cemetarygirl332 I feel you. I think a lot of us feel alone and lost. I hope you remember, we are always here for you. Would you like to talk about the feeling of alone-ness? <3. Sending virtual hugs. ... View more

@gina-RO I finished all my assignments and completed my exam. It wasn't easy, but I got through it. @cemetarygirl332 it hard. I do hope it gets easier for you <3 ... View more

1. Messaged my head 2. Took a relaxing shower 3. Watched tv with my mum ... View more

@Eden1717 hope you're doing alright. You are strong, you can get through this. Remember we are here for you <3. Sending you virtual hugs. ... View more

@Asche the concept of mindfulness is familiar for me, though I can explore relaxation/stress/mindfulness exercise in more depth during my next appointment. I can one of the biggest issues I had was I was trying to resist the pain, I still feel anxious, but not as much. And its been a little easier to focus on uni. It's that time of semester, everything is due. ... View more

@litgym Paramore is awesome! How are you doing now? ... View more

Neg: I have a bad headache. I think I’ve come down with something Pos: I think I’ll take a warm shower and relax a bit Neg: I’ve been incredibly unproductive lately Pos: it’s okay I can catch up on uni. ... View more

@gina-RO I’ve been giving it a lot of thought. I know typically in therapy people talk about trauma in detail, but I have found I can easily become so focused on it after talking to friends and family. I prefer to take a different approach, like learning to relax, learning to accept, coming back into the present, and finding hope in my faith. ... View more

@gina-RO @annabethxchase thank you for the support :) <3 . I guess it’s a wake up call. I’m studying abnormal psychology, it can be really overwhelming, but I’ve been aware of the anxiety for a long time. I could write about it, try to find safety in my Faith, being spiritual does help. But it does terrify my that I don’t have as much control as I would like to. It’s hard to be in a situation where one feels so trapped. I used to see a psychologist but I discontinued seeing her because I hit a dead end. It’s not that it didn’t help, it was no longer helping. My psychiatrist has suggested that he could refer me to a psychologist if I feel uncomfortable talking about it. The issue is I feel uncomfortable talking to anyone. And when I have discussed it in the past with family and friends, I was on the edge afterwards. ... View more

Neg: life feels so overwhelming. I’m stressing over uni and worrying about honours Pos: I need to take it a day at a time, I do seem to be doing better in my psych unit this semester than last semester Neg: my head burns, I still have a migraine Pos: it’s better than it was yesterday. ... View more