really need some company
Right now id really like some company, jsut to sit with me.
i dont like asking for help but tonight i really need it
all of yesterday i spent with a sick horse trying to save her (tvet treatements, mum ringing around for a vet yesterday, me ringing today and in less than 24 hr ive done over 7 hours walking- the condition she had can sometimes cure it) and today all morning since 5am until 12 today i was trying to save her again but despite the best efforts of myself, mum and the vets she sadly had to be put to sleep today. my mother couldnt handle it so i watched my horse be put to sleep stayed with her until the angels came for her and then get buried.
im completely heartbroken
and right now i really could use some company
Hmmm well you have definitely tried all the right things @scared01 What do you think it was about the deep breathing that made it worse?
It's okay to keep listening to music if you like 🙂 What do you reckon? You're trying to put some strategies in place which you should be super proud of - I am proud of you.
Im.getting pretty tired and i think my meds are starting to kick in so hopefully this wint turn into an all nighter @Bree-RO
I dont know why it made it worse. Maybe cause it was getting my body to rest abit more so it came more prominent. But i had to stop cause it was getting to.much
Ill keep my headphonea in until brain pretty much goes quiet thats how i know i can turn my music off.
Kind of like the breathing made your mind so still then all your thoughts came crashing in again? Really good that you tried. What kind of music are you listening to at the moment?
You've definitely earned a good sleep I reckon @scared01
Yeah @Bree-RO it was weird that it did that. I havent really had that happen before. Ive had it not work but not work this way.
Strange. Ill have to work out something else to do incase that happens again. It shocked me and i didnt really think it would work like that.
I did eventually fall asleep and i did get a few hours sleep but i never feel refreshed.
How are you feeling this morning?
Good morning @N1ghtW1ng
Yes its better than nothing for sure
Im.not really feeling any better today.
Feeling quite sick and bleh really but ive got waayyy to many things to do today to even think about breathing through anything.
