@JazzInMay I don’t know but I have been waiting 3 weeks to see them and I am not sure what people expect I am trying so hard but it is like everything is meant to be impossible. Ugh I need to scream but I can’t and I just feel so unsettled I literally can’t everything is too much and I am getting really scared of everyone and everything and I am trying not to freak out but idk if I can avoid it.
@Eden1717 I can really hear your pain here and I am so sorry that both the long wait time and others' expectations are causing you such frustration. I can see you're trying really hard to hold all your anxiety and unsettled-ness together inside you and I imagine it must be exhausting. You may have touched on this before and I apologise if I am repeating a question, but does screaming into a pillow ever help soothe the need to scream? I find it does for me sometimes, which is why I ask.
@JazzInMay No it doesn’t help. I really don’t know what to do I feel like I am about to have a big panic attack and I am trying to hold it off but before I was even shaking and my head is I can’t even explain it and I am getting really scared of everything like I am getting scared all my food has been poisoned and I can still feel the device thing in me and it is really uncomfortable and I don’t know what are my thoughts anymore and what they are making me think and do and I feel like everyone is listening into my head and watching me and if I do something wrong they will hurt me and I am trying hard to distract myself but I keep getting things put in my head that are distracting me and I even feel like my pets are not themselves and are just there to watch me and I keep thinking maybe there is more than one device and I don’t know if I am even where I think I am cause they could just be making me see that and maybe I am still there and never left which is why nothing looks right and I don’t know who or what I can trust and I am tired but I can’t sleep and I am just I don’t feel right and I am sorry I keep saying sorry because it is all my fault and I didn’t mean to ruin things this way and I tried but I guess I am just really weak I feel like I am going to cry but I can’t and I don’t know I can’t explain it.
It sounds like there is a lot going on for you tonight. What activities can you do tonight to take care of yourself?
@TOM-RO No they haven’t said anything about returning to face to face no one has I don’t know when that will happen. I don’t know that is the problem the activities I have been trying haven’t been working so I really don’t know anymore.
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