Hahahaha this be me if they let me stay..
But no they have their rules and as much as they SUCK yes RO your rules SUCK. They also make sense and are there to keep people safe so I get it but yeah.
I don't want you to worry about me with getting supports like idk if this is gonna help to hear or not but I don't think I'm going to have much choice soon cause well yeah let's just say I'm not great and can feel a storm bracing so yeah but I do promise I have been trying to work myself up to it cause this uni thing I'm doing is making me realise well yeah anyway I don't want you to worry about me okay? I can't promise you I am going to connect with services cause we know what I'm like reaching out and trusting people especially after well anyway but I can promise you I am trying to build myself up to it but yeah just ugh anyway no need to worry about me okay? I'm a tough cookie!! Ah now I want cookies!!!! Omg maybe I will go buy some for our movie night!!! Although that's kinds ridiculous cause I can't shop atm with my anxiety but its a good idea ahahahahaahaha maybe I will see if my housrmate is doing groceries today cause sometimes she will pick stuff up for me
Okay this had become one big rambled mess that probably makes zero sense and inhave gone off on so many tangents I don't even knownif I've answered any of your post 🤦♀️ but my two main take home messages are 1) please DONT worry about me 2) if I join another forum I promise you will be able to find me if you choose to, and there are no obligations obviously
Side note though.. how are you feeling today? I know last night wasn't great but do you feel like today is maybe a little better for you? I'm really sorry for upsetting you i just feel like we both need as much time to prepare as possible. Which leads me to my question.. how long in advance would you want me to tell you? Like I'm obviously trying to work myself up to it and like the other day I have one of those moments when I was certain I was just gonna up and leave but that was cause well yeah we don't go there but like how many days or weeks do you wanna know in advance? Okay this is starting to really not make me feel good so I'm going to stop but yeah maybe if you can answer that for me then I will promise to give you that and not let you down bevause I fully understand and don't ever want to ve responsible for making you feel abandoned although I feel like you're going to end up resnsenting me for it anyway because well attachment and yeah I know how it can get but I'm really sorry I upset you and have also noticed a few other things so I promise I am going to ve a lot more careful with my words or at least try to be and stay off here when I am not safe which I probs should have done yesterday do I'm sorry.
I don't know how to make this entire post a spoiler I'm sorry but if you can then maybe do? Idk you would have read it bu the time you get to here so actually wait imma chuck a TW up the top!!!
Okay done. Now as for tonight's movie.. hmm.. what access do you have? Like Netflix, stan, Disney plus? Tbh I'm not in a good place and may not make it through a full one but am kinda feeling some kind of Disney movie like a kids one? Well I reckon they are aimed at adults too lol but idk sometimes they can be nice to watch when I feel crap. Actually was it us talking about Madagascar? Idk if that's anywhere? Or something that is funny and going to make us laugh cause I feel like we both need to chuck some laughs around RO after this so we don't well yeah maybe something sort of funny or kid like? Any suggestions? I also need to see if I can steal my sisters password for Disney plus if that's what we decide to use 😂
Okay sorry for thr nicely I could just talk here all day cause it's kinda been therapeutic and well yeah anyway I've needed it and itd been a good distraction. I'm around if you wanna talk and will try my absolute best to watch my words sorry 🤦♀️ 💙
