Heya @Red_Flamingo I hope it's okay if I chime in here!
I just wanted to say that it doesn't sound to me that you're making a mountain out of a molehill - not at all! Feeling anxious while remembering the isolation and sadness you experienced at high-school is so valid.
It's human nature to need friends, community and a sense of belonging. We've survived throughout history in groups - it's how we feel safe and important. Going through such a large chunk of time in an environment like school that can be cliquey at best and straight up toxic at worst, can leave us with memories so powerful that suddenly we're right back in that moment.
You're allowed to feel upset when those memories come up and it doesn't make you pathetic or ridiculous. If you could time travel back to when you were sitting at that six-person table, what supportive message would you share with your past self? You don't have to share it with us if you don't feel comfy.
I hope watching some tele, showering and doing your skincare routine helped calm you down. I'm wishing you a relaxing weekend 😌
