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Moving (maybe)

I think when I'm discharged I'm going to have to move. I've been thinking my home has become a trigger, too many memories and bad things happened there like when I nearly died at home. 

 

I'm thinking it's about time I moved back into supported accommodation as I can't look after myself anymore. I feel like it's a step backwards but it may need to happen so I can stay safe. I'm scared. 

 

I really don't know what to do. I feel like I  can't go back to my house but I don't want to be homeless again. And my case manager is on leave so I cant work out with her what my next step is. 

I know I have to get discharged but I'm scared. Right now I'm clear enough to know I want to be safe, but when I'm not clear I have to die there's no other options. I also dont want to go psychotic again, and my house triggers that off too so yeh. 

How do I tell them any of this. 

I guess I could start with my temp case manager tomorrow but I'm scared. 

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I'm getting discharged today, I've arranged to stay at a friends because I don't want to go back to my house
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@redhead that sounds like a really great interim measure.

 

Supported accomodation isn't always a step back. Especially if it's something like a step up/step down program where you live for a little while, but with the plan of always going back to somewhere else when you're ready.

 

What specific things in or about the house cause the feelings? Are they things you could change? If you did move, but things got tough again, how would you go about making sure that these challenges didn't happen all over again?

 

Do you rent? Own? Or do you get housing assistance?

 

 

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Also i just remembered after i hit post that you didn't find Step up/Step down so good last time? Has that changed at all?

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@Ben-RO I've never been to a step up step down program. I lived in a supported accommodation/recovery program for a year and over two years ago, but towards the end there things got rough.
I spoke to my temp case manager today about some of my options and we agreed to wait till my case manager came back next week before going ahead with anything. My temp explained some of the different options out there and some of it sounds good.

I live by myself in a private rental. My house is triggering from the last few times I've attempted at home, I can't be there without it reminding me of it and it makes me want to try again tbh. Also I don't think I can cope on my own anymore, being stuck with my thoughts and the aliens gets too much and I just act on them. I need to learn better ways of dealing with my crisises. With the supported accommodation there would be staff and other people there to help me deal with things. I would also create a management plan with them so they and I know what to do when certain things arise.

I know moving won't fix all my problems but I need a new start and a new focus l. I can't keep doing what I've been doing. I don't want to end up dead.
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@redhead I am so impressed by your self-awareness and recognition that supported accommodation might be what you need right now. If it is, that's totally okay. The most important thing is that you're safe.

 

I know you can't tell because this is a text post but I am smiling as I type this and I am cheering for you! Heart 

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It's gonna take a bit til I actually get there though. I don't know what to do until I have a new place to live @letitgo
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@redhead could you maybe stay with a friend or ask a friend to stay with you for a bit so you're not alone in the house, until you find a new place?

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@letitgo I've been able to stay at my best mates. He's letting me stay until my cm get backs next week and we can work on a plan.
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@redhead I just wanted to chime in and say that I'm also truly impressed at the insight here, even when things are tough Heart let us know how the discussions with your case manager go when they're back Smiley Happy

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