I’m never getting better so that’s why I should just kill myself but I’m scared
and it’s ‘selfish’
@Bananatime04 Why do you think you're different though? What do you think makes you an exception?
A lot of people feel like they won't get better until they do, and so it can feel like death is the only option. But death doesn't actually fix anything, it just stops you ever feeling better.
Sometimes I think it can help to write out all the reasons why you might be feeling sad. You can put down everything, and then from there start figuring out what you can change and improve. For example, you might put down that you feel alone, or you don't have many friends. But that is something that will change in time - it's always hard when you move somewhere, but slowly you start to meet new people and make new connections with them 
Have you met any of the other kids at CAHMS? Do you think you'd be able to make friends with them?
Death doesn’t make me happy but it ends the sadness
No I only met the social worker there so far.. I meet the psychiatrist soon though. I do have one friend from school, we’ve had a lunch date (which was horrible because I’m trying to hide my eating problems from her and forced myself to eat that day) and we were gonna hang out these holidays but she’s with her nan and pop at the nursing home 5 hours away.
I could write everything down.. actually I already have, I have soooo many lists on these torn out pieces of paper that I slid under my tall boy (so my mum can’t find them)
