Re: loosing the will to go on
Re: loosing the will to go on
So yesterday on my way to work I was involved in a car accident. I thought I was ok but it tunred out I wasnt as ok as I thought I was. It really rattled me. It was me vs a truck as in like those big water tanker trucks not 4wd. We both rounded a blind spot yesterday and we both moved as far across in what little space and time we had but it was too close. He s pushed me right onto thr other side of the road where I thought things were going to go ok until I ran over something in thr grass and busted 2 tyres and lost control. My car stopped just before I reached the big dip that goes straight into the creek I was able to get out and the truckie stopped as well no damage to his truck or him but my car wasnt into the greatest shape. I was ok and felt fine and managed to get the car to safer place. The truckie left and I had to call pop to come and get me. We changed one tyre to my spare and then mums bf was able to drive my car slowly home.
Its a bit blurry after that but I remember getting to the hospital because I coudlnt move my neck properly and was having a heap of pain, I was dizzy and really tired and could hardly move anywhere and headaches so I ended up at the hospital after cancelling my pscyh appointment then let mum know as she went to work after I said I was ok and she could go.
Well then didnt crap hit the fan. The accident really started to dawn on me and how serious it was. I had blurred vision to the point I really couldnt see anything. It was way too blurry, I couldnt stop shaking one because I really couldnt see I could make out blurred figures. I kept vomiting everywhere and Thats why they wanted urgent Cts done. So I had that done, bloods, ecg and a few other tests. It was so awkward because they wanted to see if I had internal injuries. None of those but I have a few brusies from the seatbelt tin a few spots where I mustve jerked forward when the car was going haywire
I cant really remember all too much about the results but they couldnt have been too bad as they released me today. Im abit better today. My blurred vision gones but ive still got a mild headache and earache from it. I remember them saying I lost conciousness twice. They said that everything was coming up ok so all of this was total and utter shock so they kept me overnight. I dont really remember much else after I had all the tests done they eventually let me sleep, mustve slept all night . Not really sure what time I woke up but I remember waking with a start because I had a nightmare about the accident and then as it was coming to an end someone touched me. Just a nurse.
Went back to sleep though.
Not the greatest way to be in hospital. They wanted to keep me in until about lunch time just to make sure and I ended up getting out about 1030ish.
Im still really letheragic and lacking in energy, and in quite abit of pain from bruising and general aches and pains esp my back and neck. But otherwise im ok. Physically anyway. Mentally im having a few flashabacks and the thought of having to get back into a car panics me. Ive called my boss and said I wont be in the rest of the week and shes totally understanding about it.
Thank you guys for sticking by me during this time. It really means a great deal to me. More than what I can express in words. So thank you so so much
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