not feeling very good about myself
My chest has been pretty bad lately 😞 I tried drawing again today, used some crayons and felt like crying because I suck. Just feeling really stuck and it's not helping that it feels like there is a giant knot in the middle of my bloody chest.
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@redhead I just wish I could be good at the things I love doing. I'm doing an art unit at the moment and am really enjoying doing all the art but when I try to do it at home I feel so upset with myself, same with when I write or play or anything I like doing. Weekends are the hardest because I have so much free time to do the things I love.
Can you do the activities without judging yourself for them and enjoy the process rather than the finished product
(though I wouldn't say you have no talent. I like your drawings)
I'd be interested to read your writing sometime too @N1ghtW1ng, as long as you were comfortable with it.
Have you ever read Big Magic by Elizabeth Gilbert? There's some ideas in there about accepting the results of our own creative process as something special exactly as they are, and I've found that really helpful when I start judging my writing.
Would it be possible for you to get back into horse riding?
hi @N1ghtW1ng im sorry your feeling like this. i understand how hard it is when you feel stuck both physically and mentally
has something brought this on? a recent event maybe?
id love to read some of your stories too, and i love your art too. you sure have talant there.
maybe if you cant think of anything to add to your creative writing could you maybe try some poem writing about certian things or how your feeling?
i find when im stuck for words i turn to poem writing and sometimes that helps too.
can you try looking into horse riding again? i know near me there are 2 areas that i can go for trial riding rather than my own horses. maybe theres something near you that you could enrol into some lessons, or group trail riding?
I'm just an unhelpable self-destructive freak.
Is there anything you do that usually helps when your like this. Could you try the phones or is that too much.
I totally get not being able to do it though. I'm kinda in the same boat.
I am probably going to go out later this afternoon with my mum to buy a new comforter for my bed (because the quilt is too messy/"full"/whatever) and a comforter would be nicer for summer.
Yeah. I think I'll buy some of the twisties, try to finish vaccuming the rooms and watch a heap of Criminal Minds then later in the week (or today if I feel up to it) start some assignments.
@N1ghtW1ng I totally get that feeling of knowing how to make yourself feel better but then still not doing it. How's the twisties/vacuuming/shopping going?
And it's great you got your twisties and even if you sucked at vacuuming it's ok.
Ooooh they look awesome! I love fiddling with those kinds of things when I'm really agitated. Gonna look for them next time I'm at the shops 🙂
