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Re: when is it time for hospital

Yeah im taking some pain relief then going to bed @Sally-RO
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hope the medications give you the pain relief soon @scared01

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Me too @Sally-RO
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R u still around @Sally-RO my sisters cough is setting my anxiety again and its really bad
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@scared01 how'd the psychiatrist appointment go?

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Re: when is it time for hospital

Hello everyone @Sally-RO@redhead@Bree-RO

 

I cant say how thank ful I am to have you guys on here being so supportive.
I havent been in a very good headspace to really reply on here, though I have been having abit of help behind the scenes.
I am still smack bang in the middle of the storm
I seen my nurse yesterday and she took some swabs for me to see if I have an infection down stairs- lets hope not but the amount of antibiotics and stress ive been under it wouldnt surprise me
I thought id hold off on hosipital at this second but was at my last straw that If I needed to I was going.
I went to see my psychiatrsit today and she said I tappered off way to fast on medications which could be abit of the way im feeling plus the lack of family support, lossing friends, being a 'mum' when im not a mum im suppose to be a sister as well as starting out as being a carer at such a young age – this si including my nan so I was 14 then. And also the family troubles ive been having with my mother and my sisters as well as the bullies and the full on few days ive had to push through with the sick horse isnt helping me.
She said please the next time I even think about suicide to call an ambulance as the way I was speaking to her today about the way ive been feeling I may not thin next time and I might just do it and not think of anything else and just make an attempt.

She wants me to start doing things for myself as well and to take the time to just do something each day that I want to do even if I dont feel like it esp the drawing as she said that was something that was helping me and even if I dont feel like it do it any way itll give my brain something else to think about. She wants me to get my favourite books back out and start reading them again, even write recounts of eahc chapter to keep my mind occupied if thats something im into

She said that there is a place about an hour and half away from me that is a metal health retreat and she can organise for me to go there. The only problem is yet again my responsibilities here and what my sisters and mother would think if I was to go. It runs for 4 weeks and I would be an inpatient. I havent got the full details as yet as I said I need to think about it.

Tomorrow I start a new medication when I get to my gp in the morning and she has also increased to to see my gp twice a week otherwise they will be ringing in to check on me and if I dont answer theres a possibility they will send an ambulance and have me admitted involuntary

the self harm urges I was telling her about she is agreeing with me that its like an addiction and when I dont feed the addiction its pretty much into withdrawal which is why I start to have all those extra side effects that I wasnt having before.


I havent slept properly in a few days because my sisters been sick and it sets my health anxiety off. She is on antibitoics as of today as she went to the drs so hopefully that will clear up quickly

whats appeitie? I dont know what that is anymore I think im suppose to be eating yeah well nope


this is some seriously scary shite- fpr my psychiatrist to be saying that has seriously opened my eyes as to how serious my mental health is and that I seriously need some help and now before I do make an attempt.

 

She did say though but I seem to be taking it ok- done have much emotion anyway une=less its the health anxiety and that was she said if I dont stop self ahrming then shes failed. An she doesnt really want to do that. No pressure much.


I dont know what to do. The health retreat does sound quite nice but its 4 weeks how the heck am I going to work that out when mum works, im pops carers and ive got the horses to do. I cant leave it all to them but I need to at the same time. I know it would be the right choice if I did go but I cant go Smiley Sad

Im too scared to even ask my mother about it. Sje knows im not doing well so she says to other people and then when I say something like taking a break she gets angry at me.
This is what the argument was over last night
I know it owuldnt have been safe for me at the time but I was going to check into a chotel for a few nights to get away from everything but the way I am I dont think think thats a safe option esp now after what my psychiatrsit has said.

 

This is some very scary stuff!!

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Hey @scared01 oh wow the retreat sounds like an amazing opportunity! And sounding like you and the Psych got along?

 

I see what you're saying around approaching the subject with your Mother though.

 

 

Do you think that she would be open to the conversation at all?

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aaannnd right on cue  @Bree-RO
i have yet another argument about my mental health
my mother thinks everytime i go to see anyone that i come back a psychopath
 
i asked about the hospitals and also offered her to speak to my psych and also my gp and she doesnt want anythign to do with it
shes really angry at me Smiley Sad

what did i do Smiley Sad

 

she wont even look or talk to me now im such a disgrace

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Oh that sounds like a really hard one, I definitely do not think you are a disgrace I think you've done so much work this week I am very impressed with you moving forward Heart

@scared01 do you need her permission though to carry on with looking after yourself? It's your life you know.. I guess you can never control the people around you, but you're the one who is living with this, it would be good to have her support; but if not should this stop you?