really need some company
Right now id really like some company, jsut to sit with me.
i dont like asking for help but tonight i really need it
all of yesterday i spent with a sick horse trying to save her (tvet treatements, mum ringing around for a vet yesterday, me ringing today and in less than 24 hr ive done over 7 hours walking- the condition she had can sometimes cure it) and today all morning since 5am until 12 today i was trying to save her again but despite the best efforts of myself, mum and the vets she sadly had to be put to sleep today. my mother couldnt handle it so i watched my horse be put to sleep stayed with her until the angels came for her and then get buried.
im completely heartbroken
and right now i really could use some company
I know @roseisnotaplant
Thats why i think i need some company before i let my thoughts and worries sbd grief swallow me up
So very sorry to hear of your loss @scared01. Your fellow members are here to support you through this rough period but I understand this is not the same as physical company. Please take care and be kind to yourself as much as possible.
I know its not the same @TOM-RO but its enough for just to be here ❤❤
Im jist struggling with all these emotions and what to do with them
Im worn out yet im super fridgety and restless
So im trying to just BE and not worry too much and let the emotions come as they please
@scared01 sounds like you had a really effective approach in regards to letting the emotions come and go as they please. How has this worked for you?
it wasnt working for me @letitgo
so ive picked a new approach- keep busy busy busy. while ever im doing something else then im not really thinking about it
Hey @scared01 how are you feeling at the moment? It sounds like you had a pretty intense week last week, and you've been trying some different ways of coping with all of your emotions.
yep and today was suppose to be a rest day @safari93 but thats too hard to ask for becasue i had to watch the kids and my weeks start on sundays right through sometimes without a break on the saturday. so really its rare that i get a break and when im not working- either of the 2 jobs, im watching the kids, and if im not doing that then i should be studying but soemtimes i jsut get tired and want to pancake on the lounge which when im getting home at 8 most days i have dinner shower and bed.
and today is no exception to my suicidal thoughts that despite what i do they keep hanging around and im drowning in them
Hey @scared01 sounds like you've had a super tough week and you've got so many things to juggle right now- I feel for you. I hope tonight you can switch off and relax on the couch as it sounds like you need down time hey. Often when we have sooo much going on, the suicidal thoughts can get really intense. Are you feeling safe at the moment?
Yes Hayley was helping me on my loosing the will to go on thread
I am safe just struggling with the thoughts @TOM-RO
Yeah they are really intense thoughts to have and a lot of people do struggle with them. You are not alone @scared01 I'm glad to hear Hayley was helping you out last night. I'll check out the thread 🙂
- Krystal R/O
yeah id rather talk there where that thread is aimed at whats happening now @TOM-RO
Yeah no problems @scared01 I'll jump on the loosing the will to go on thread now 🙂
hi @honky
i havent met you yet so its nice to 'meet' you
im not really any better
i was suppose to go feed a horse at the same property where my horse passed away but i coudlnt i kept driving and sttarted crying.
i will have to buck up tomorrow thought because the horse needs to be fed and its yard hasnt been cleaned out for nearly a week!
Nice to meet you @scared01 
That's okay, there's no rush to feeling better. Take the time you need to heal.
Take it easy on yourself tonight, and prepare yourself for the emotions tomorrow. Don't forget, it's okay to cry, so if it happens don't feel ashamed. It's our bodies way of expressing emotions.
I'm always happy to listen xx
thanks @honky i know its hard but i just have to keep moving forward hey
hey are you going?
ohh haha that makes so much more sense @scared01
I'm a bit tired from uni, but I'm well. Thank you
How's your night going?
im super stressed but i cant really do much else about it yet and the other predicament im in i have no idea how to solve just yet @honky
what are you studying ?
Oh no, that's not good! If there's anything I can help with, please feel free to let me know and I will try my best to help
I'm currently studying a major in Rehabilitation Counselling. What about yourself @scared01? Are you studying?
