That sounds like an awful situation to be in @333 
It sounds like you were quite drunk so you weren't able to consent what was happening? It makes sense that you would freeze up and not know what to do, that's a really common response I'm really sorry this happened to you. Have you been able to talk to anyone about this? I think what you're feeling is really understandable. Also.. a lot of people who experience something like this begin to blame themselves for what happened, so I hope you know what happened wasn't your fault?
hey @333,
I just want to echo what @Lost_Space_Explorer5 and @Bingo1234 have written 
it's definitely not your fault for any of this to have happened to you, and it's important to know that your friend is the one responsible for the situation. Regardless of how drunk a person is, it is always extremely important that they get your explicit consent before touching your body in any way.
It makes sense that you would feel so so deeply uncomfortable, and I can completely understand why the situation prevented you from saying something in the moment. This sense of feeling frozen and unable to think clearly is really common when something stressful, scary, or deeply uncomfortable is happening to us. A lot of people who've had similar experiences to yours also often say they felt like they couldn't do anything in the moment. Again, I really, really want to underline that this isn't your fault at all
If you feel comfortable to do so, explaining to your friend what had happened last night, that you felt uncomfortable by it, and that you were extremely disappointed and disgusted by how they treated you, can help you re-assert your boundaries. It can also be a really good idea, regardless of if you message them or not, to take some space away from this person. Often when we are assaulted by people we trust, we can feel pressured (by both them, and ourselves) to just pretend that the assault never happened. It's really important to give yourself the space and kindness to acknowledge what had happened, and treat it seriously as something that made you feel uncomfortable, disgusted, and anxious.
It's also a good idea to get in contact with some professional help to talk through what you experienced in more detail. 1800 Respect is an extremely good service, where you can talk to professional counsellors about sexual assault, who can help you work through some of what you're feeling, as well as point you in the direction of other supports. You're also always welcome to keep posting on the forum - we'll always be here to listen
We're here if you want to talk through anything else. And remember there is no pressure to talk to your friend, immediately (if at all), it's up to you. It was really brave of you to reach out here, it can't have been an easy thing to confront those horrible feelings. I agree with @Andrea-RO, reaching out to professional help might be a good idea. I hear you're wanting to 'get over' what happened so some support might be helpful to process things. I hope you're not putting pressure on yourself to move on from what happened though. Remember what you're feeling is completely valid and it can be unhelpful to force ourselves to get over something. Although I feel like you might have meant get over it as in wishing it hadn't happened and that you could forget about it and not have all of these painful emotions ?
Everyone certainly does cope with it differently, there is no right or wrong way to feel
