Whatever
I had this whole paragraph planned in my head about what I was gonna write on here but now I don’t even care.
i just wanna leave.
😐
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Hi @Just_nobody,
I am hearing that you put a lot of time into planning what you were going to write, the fact that you have made this post and put some words together here is such a big step and we are very grateful you have reached out to us 
It sounds like things have been challenging today. Would you like to talk with us about what is happening for you? We are here for you
You've mentioned wanting to leave, are you able to elaborate on what you mean by that?
Hi @Just_nobody
I have had to remove your post. I have sent you an email. Please check your emails when you get a chance
I just can’t stop.
Nothing I do is working and I can’t stop myself.
The thing is I don’t know how to stop.
theres nothing else I can do.
i seriously just shouldn’t be here anymore
so im sorry
Hey @Just_nobody
Please don't feel the need to apologise to us, we understand that you're in distress and we're here to support you. I'm really concerned for you right now - Are you safe right now?
I think it could be a good chance now to remind everyone that it is completely okay to talk about self harm. If you need to talk about self harm on the forums it's really important that you confirm that you are safe at some point in your post. Because we all care for each other here, it can be distressing for others to read if they are unsure if you're safe If you could confirm that you're safe that would be appreciated - if we don't hear back from you by 4:30 pm today I will need to remove your post.
I want you to know that it's possible to recover from self-harm - even though when used as a copying strategy it can feel like you don't want to stop doing it. Anything that relieves pain is something humans naturally want to seek out. The trick is finding methods of coping that aren't harmful to you - because you are worthy and important
Is there anyone in your life that you trust that you could talk to about these thoughts you're having?
I’m struggling a lot with self harm and suicIdeal thoughts but I am currently safe.
Hey @Just_nobody
I'm glad to know that you are safe In saying that my heart goes out to you as you experience such difficult things. It takes incredible courage to get up and face each day when you are feeling so low - I want to recognise that you are seeking help which is a difficult first step to make.
Do you feel like you could open up to a loved one about how much you're struggling with self harm and suicidal thoughts? Know that we are here to help you get the support you need
My boyfriend is really supportive of me but I’m finding it harder lately to open up to anyone.
I’ve just been getting worse with self harming and idk what to do about it.
I just can’t stop wanting to do it.
It’s never been like this before so idk why I’ve suddenky become really addicted to it.
I’m scared and idk what to do.
Hi @Just_nobody
I know it can be really hard opening up but it is important to let other people know what is going on. You deserve support. You shouldn't have to go through this alone. It's awesome that your boyfriend is really supportive.
As @Bre-RO said, it is possible to recover from self-harm. We believe you can do it, especially if you have the right supports in place.
Are you seeking professional support at the moment?
Do you think you might be able to foster the courage to tell your boyfriend about how you're feeling?
If these urges to self-harm become unbearable tonight, then we'd encourage you to contact a helpline for support. Please see our urgent help page here.
But I’m still finding it really hard to tell them anything because I thought things were getting better. Like I was feeling better. But then all of a sudden I started hurting myself again and I just couldn’t get suicide plans out of my head.
Yes the plan is still there but I’m safe for now
And I told my boyfriend about it all today and he’s just trying his best to help me get through it and make sure I continue living.
But trust me, I certainly don’t make it easy for him.
It’s just not fair to anyone.
But idk how to stop myself.
That's great to hear you currently seeing both a psychologist and a school counsellor. Just to quickly clarify, you're finding it difficult to tell them anything because you were getting better? If so, I just want to let you know that it is totally normal to spiral back down again after you've gotten better - and I'm pretty sure both your psychologist and counsellor agree with this too. Yes, it really, really sucks when we spiral back down again - it's like we're back to square one, right? Especially with self-harm. It's so, so difficult to stop it - it really is easier said than done.
I was wondering what strategies you've already tried to reduce to self-harm? When I used to self-harm, I would often write down in a journal the pain I was feeling and that really helped with preventing harming myself.
Good luck! I believe in you - sending hugs of support <3.
Hi @Esperanza67
yes I am finding it hard to tell them things aren’t good because I feel it will just ruin all the progress we have made.
And Ways ive tried to stop myself from self harming?
I draw on myself or if it’s late at night I just try to go to sleep.
Hi @Just_nobody, I have sent you an email if you can please have a look It can feel like you might disappoint others if you tell them the truth.. but our mental health journeys are never in a straight line. Sometimes we might go up, down and all over the place. Everyone's journey is different. Recognising these things can help us to treat ourselves with a more care... and less judgement. Health professionals often have a whole range of experience and know that our recovery is not always in a straight line too. A lot of things about progress can't be taken away - I am sure there is so much knowledge and strength you have gained along the way. The most important thing is getting the support that we need and deserve. Opening up to the health professionals in your life might be able to help make things good again. It could also allow you to discuss strategies to stop self-harming. It can be such a big and scary step to take.. Is this something you have discussed with them before? 
@Taylor-RO Thanks, I read your email and replied.
And I have spoken to my psychologist about self harming strategies before and I used some of them but back then I didn’t really need to as much because I was able to stop myself from the urges. But now it’s different and even when I try to stop myself I can’t.
So idk what to do.
But I am safe right now.
It is great that this is something you have spoken to them about self harming strategies before. As I said, it can be a challenging conversation to have.. so well done. It is okay if things have changed in your life and you need more support. Maybe it would help to let them know that you are finding it difficult to stop? They may be able to offer different strategies that are more specific to this. Sometimes general strategies help, sometimes we might need something a little more unique to us. We are all different so it is perfectly normal to need to try different strategies. What do you think?
