Self compassion
I find being kind to myself really hard. I need to learn some self compassion.
I'm making this thread so I can post stuff and turn it around into self compassion.
For example.
I really wanted to sh today
Self compassion - I did really well not to act on the urge and I've come a long way.
I'm really struggling at uni right now, particularly with the practical skills I require to be a music therapist, and my confidence has really taken a hit with everyone around me seemingly doing very well in this area. But my skills are so much better than they were this time last year (I only started learning guitar last year), and I still have 6 months to get things to where they need to be. And Ps get degrees!
@mrmusic I love how you summed it up. P's do get Degrees. That's my philosophy, I straighten my back a little more during placement 🙂 I think you're doing an awesome job. What do you find about the practical component that's so challenging?
@Bree-RO It's pretty much the guitar skills, I can do basic strumming, and my open-string chords are pretty good, but I need to be able to play melodies fluently at a reasonable speed. I also need more hand strength for other types of chords as well. More strum patterns would also be useful.
Feel you bud @mrmusic I am envious you can do basic strumming and open chords. I have the opposite issue can do decent picking and riffs but struggle to strum for some reason - cannot get the rhythm! You've got this. I had a friend once say, everytime you watch tele - just pick it up for ten minutes for the start of each show. That's an extra 70 mins a week on top of your practice if you watch tele each day 🙂
@Bree-RO I already have a practice routine, but that is DEFINITELY something to keep in mind! Lots of little chunks of practice do add up!
Trigger Warning
I'm struggling big time tonight with myself. I feel so anxious and stressed, yet at the same time extremely unmotivated and depressed. I have been really emotional tonight, I've just been a wreck, and I can't see why anyone would want to like me.
But I'm trying to stay afloat. I know that these thoughts are not true (even if I'm struggling to believe it), and I know that I care about others around me. It has been really good to read of someone else's positive during their difficult time, and I feel very happy that I was able to make even a tiny contribution to that person's well-being.
I’m having a rather bad night tonight. I’m being really hard on myself for not being perfect, and it’s making my mood worse. I’m finding life really hard right now.
But I’m still trying, and I’ve been able to make a positive contribution to RO today, in spite of everything. I will get through this.
Mine:
I'm really struggling with my weight right now. My medication made me rapidly gain then that triggered my ED. I'm trying to be gentle and remind myself I am so much more than my weight and also being gentle with myself regarding my ED, I can get past these behaviours again, I was in recovery before I can get back there.
Thanks @redhead. 
I'm having yet another bad day today, and I feel like a failure because it appears that I am having a full-blown relapse. I'm also scared about what may happen if I don't look after myself properly, particularly considering that I can't really afford to go into hospital right now.
But relapse is a normal part of recovery. I knew I was probably going to have to deal with it at some point, and I'm trying my best. If I have to go into hospital, I'm sure I could work something out with uni and work, and I have so much support here on RO and outside.
I haven't been online much lately sorry, how have you been looking after yourself
Hi @redhead, if I'm honest, I haven't been looking after myself probably as much as I should, although I've been trying.
The biggest issue with going into hospital would be my placements, as that would really put me behind in hours. As you say though, that's not the end of the world. I think I'm also basing my experience from uni last time I went into hospital (which was really bad), but that would be the exception rather than the norm. I've got a long thread going about everything right now here, if you want to take a look.
I've been really negative on the forum tonight, and I had quite a significant outburst as a result of me not practising self-care in the way I should have been. But I'm still trying, and it's still a journey, and I will get through this - I just need to be more patient with myself. I've got this.
I'm really struggling on my placement and I don't feel I'm actually learning many 'practical' things that I'm going to be able to take with me for my own practice. But I'm still getting reasonable experience, and I don't have to be perfect - even when I am fully qualified. I believe that I can keep my clients/residents etc. safe and play a positive role in meeting their needs.
Hey @redhead, good on you for starting this thread! 
I know you've said that this thread is for you to post stuff and turn it around into self-compassion, but can others do the same? Thinking this thread could be great for the RO community. 🙂
Oh and also the heat is making me lethargic and tired/angry again. At least I know why I'm feeling this way so I can either ignore it or push through it or give myself a break if I need it. (I wish I didn't live in such a hot, humid place though. Then this wouldn't be such a big deal 😞 It's already so hot)
I'm sorry I didn't see this post until now! Humidity when you are in pain is super uncomfortable. Recognising that it is okay to take a break is really great. How have you been this week?
Sending hugs and hoping that you have felt less pain this week!
