Feeling overwhelmed
I have so much to do..
I'm so tired. There's just so much and it's too much. I hate relying on other people but I have no choice.
I'm trying so hard with everything and nothing's working and I'm exhausted and overwhelmed.
I want to cry but I don't have the energy.
I barely have the energy to move.
I don't know how I'm going to do everything I need to do.
@Tiny_leaf I'm so sorry you've got a lot on your plate right now. 😞 I can understand you not wanting to rely on other people, but there is nothing wrong about having some support around you, especially as you've been going through such a difficult time. It's frustrating that they are unreliable though. Have you tried communicating to them how their unreliability affects you?
They're basically unpaid carers. Also I feel like they resent the amount they have to do for me.
It wouldn't go down well.
Hey @Tiny_leaf , how are you doing today? I can hear how exhausting and overwhelming it's all feeling at the moment ,and it must be so frustrating having to rely on people who aren't the most reliable 😞 Is it a review for your NDIS plan that's coming up?
@Janine-RO yeah it's really soon I need it to happen but I'm scared I just want to hide but I have no choice...
It sounds like a pretty overwhelming and shitty process @Tiny_leaf , but I really hope it leads to you getting the supports you deserve. Come here and vent any time you need to. Do you still have your favourite support worker working with you?
@Janine-RO yeah... I just had to write a letter to them. It was basically just me telling them off about various issues I have with them, all amounting to "look how your lack of funding has messed up everything"
I do 
I was going to see them yesterday but then mum realised we were running out of funding.
Hey @Tiny_leaf , you write so well here, so I'm sure it was a killer letter. I hope you get the funding you need - it's really good to hear that your favourite worker is back on board!
@Janine-RO because everyone here is nice none of you guys have seen my passive aggression.. hehehe...
My OT said it was exactly what we needed which was good.
@Lost_Space_Explorer5 @Bananatime04 mwahahaha...
I enjoyed writing it, from my perspective I think I got just the right of "look what you did" in between the "this is what I need".
Also got to lecture them about misgendering me and about trying to separate me from my disability because they are two things in the system that really annoy me.
And that was just in the introduction!! 
No reply from the dog people.. 
I'm hoping someone will reply but Imma look at other breeds just in case.
What’s up?
@Maddy-RO tired, but I get to see my grandma today.
(I'm in WA so it's pretty safe here)
Okay yep @Tiny_leaf you're not alone in terms of feeling tired. Aww that's nice haha, do you see your grandma often? What do you usually do when you catch up?
@Maddy-RO normally hang out with her and her puppy and do gardening.
But my whole family is coming over to help her fix something.
aw that sounds lovely! @Tiny_leaf I'm in melb so full lock-down for me...
@Maddy-RO oof... that doesn't sound fun at all...
You at least have a kitty to keep you company though right?
Yes, I have my precious daughter with me 
..I also still live at home with mum and my grandma lives across the rd like "Everybody Loves Raymond", and she sleeps at my house since grandpa passed. So I have company which is good.
I hope you've had a good day at your grandmas so far!! And that you're feeling a little less lonely after yesterday @Tiny_leaf
