Feeling overwhelmed
I have so much to do..
I'm so tired. There's just so much and it's too much. I hate relying on other people but I have no choice.
I'm trying so hard with everything and nothing's working and I'm exhausted and overwhelmed.
I want to cry but I don't have the energy.
I barely have the energy to move.
I don't know how I'm going to do everything I need to do.
I'm angry and sad that some people are treated so badly that when you're nice to them they treat you like a hero.
I hate that people would treat someone so badly for so long that they don't realise they deserve better.
Oh yay now I'm really upset and suicidal because of something tiny but if I express that to my family it'll be seem as me being manipulative and selfish and using my mental illness to get what I want.
@Tiny_leaf Would it help to express your feelings here? I can relate to that in a way my family used to completely disregard my concerns or feelings when I would get upset at “little things” because I was mentally ill therfore my feelings apperantly aren’t valid and my reactions are obviously “unreasonable”. They are less like that now partly because myself and my doctors, psychologists and so on have spent a lot of time trying to educate them on mental health stuff and partly because I am able to communicate my needs and feelings better but it really does suck and it isn’t fair that they do that. Also we won’t judge you if you do decide to share it doesn’t matter how big or small something may seem if it has upset someone then that is the thing that matters.
@Eden1717 it's a little thing but it's more than that it's all too much
@Tiny_leaf well I personally don’t care if it is little or not but if you think sharing what it is would be helpful then I can listen but that is up to you. Are you at least feeling safe at the moment? For what it is worth I think you belong but I can’t deny that things here are a little fucked up. It can get really overwhelming when we start to think of all the world problems that we want to or need to fix but that us as an individual can’t fix on our own. It can feel very powerless and exhausting trying to fight the system.... I am sorry you are feeling bad.
Thank you @Eden1717
I'm just exhausted and feeling shitty and I wanted to do something nice to help me deal with it but from the outside it looks like I'm crying over not getting a bit chocolate
@Tiny_leaf That is hard, having our plans changed or interrupted can be very upsetting especially if it is something we had been planing all day or looking forward too. And it is also hard when we think we have a coping skill available that will work and then that gets changed or removed from our options. I am sorry you haven’t been able to do what you needed to feel better.
Why does being trans take so much fucking courage I'm not brave enough I didn't choose this
*sending you virtual hugs if you want them*
each second is an achievement. I feel like we both have to lower our goals and standards because if we set goals like ‘I want to get married one day’ for example then what about setting small goals like ‘I want to make it to this weekend and I’m going to treat myself when I achieve this!’. Life is so big and so precious, but the small things are what make the big things happen. Using my example, how is this person going to get married if they don’t make it to the weekend? Living should be something to appreciate having the opportunity to be here but I know it’s so hard when you feel like shit, that’s why we need to realise that one day it’s going to be over and no one knows when but it’s up to us to fit all these beautiful things in those days and live each day like you’re not going to wake up tomorrow.I know it feels like too much but you’ve got this! You are going to smash through the rest of this horrible war that you are going to win, against these mental illnesses. You are in control. You are not your mental Illnesses and they don’t define you, you’re just having to deal with them and they don’t deserve to win. Your future isn’t going to be the same as your present.
I know you’re tired and fed up with all this bullshit and you probably feel so close to breaking, but there’s strength in you even when you feel weak. So do not ever give up! The world is better with you in it, for so many reasons
In a few years you’re going to look back on these days and thank yourself for being so incredibly strong and pushing through really shitty things and you’re going to be proud of yourself, so am I
I want to ask you something that Jazz Thornton asks her tiktok fans. Are you fighting your mental illnesses, or are you surviving?
As long as you stay here, as long as you are my friend, you’re never going through anything alone! I may not always be the best help for you but I’m always here with you
We love you so much, we love having you on the forums and we believe in you!
Hey @Tiny_leaf, Before I log off for the night, I just wanted to check in again with how you're feeling it's ok to not feel ok, especially when you haven't been able to access a coping mechanism that you were hoping to use. Do you think you'll be safe for the rest of the night?
@Bananatime04 whenever I'm really upset you always seem to say the nicest things and can't always reply properly but I always read them and they mean a lot and thank you.
sometimes it’s just nice to know someone cares and is there for you.I’m not sure where you can find some advice from other people with autism but I do know that eheadspace have been running these scheduled group chats with a certain topic, maybe you could email them and suggest one for autistic people about stimming?
THEY HAVE A PUPPY AVAILABLE OMG PUPPY PUPPY PUPPY PUPPY!!!!!
IT'S GOING TO HAPPEN
Puppy is home. Cats are freaking out. dad's putting too much pressure on me and not letting me set boundaries.
Exhausted, sleep deprived and very busy.
Won't be around for a bit while I sort it all out.
@Hannah-RO it's finished, and I'm exhausted.
My tiny, disabled legs are really not cut out for multiple hikes through the bush.
Hey @Tiny_leaf good to hear from you 
I imagine camp is keeping you pretty busy, how is it going?
Just realised I posted about wanting to die and then left.. oops...
I ways have the worst timing.
I'm fine, just at a school camp so I don't have much time or energy right now.
Hey @Tiny_leaf , I'm sorry to hear you're in a dark place today. Would looking at things to help you get through today help at all - maybe some art? I remember from stuff you've shared here before that you're really talented... do you mind if I ask what's got you feeling that way today?
