It feels like everyone is leaving me (Part 3!)

I'm okay and my sleep was okay. How are you @Taylor-RO? 

I'm glad to hear that you are feeling okay and that you slept okay. 

Is there something that you can do for yourself tonight, to make yourself feel even a little bit better?

We are all here for you @Lost_Space_Explorer5💜

Thanks @MB95 it's okay I had my own 2am RO party 😆 What are you talking about those are some beautiful memes! *chefs kiss* Thanks for the sloth hugs you did make me smile a little I will admit

I'm really sorry you've been feeling so down @Lost_Space_Explorer5 and that we weren't around for the usual 2am RO party time to try and pick you up. I am not much to talk to atm I'm sorry, but going to just leave these here for you and hope they somehow bring a smile to your face. I'm defs no where near as good at this as you, but I tried right..?! I really do hope you're okay and that your psych exam went okay? I'll try check in with you when I'm a little less meh. But I'm thinking of you and sending mumma sloth hugs 💙

I'm sorry lost. I hope it wasn't as bad as you think. 

Can we just communicate about the exam through gifs cause I don't think I'm wanting to talk about it rn 🤣

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I can relate to that email regret way too much. I'm sure your psych is probably expecting a few emails like that being exam time though so try not to stress about it too much. Easier said than done, I know. 

Sorry you haven't made it through the content yet. Maybe just try and focus on the fact it's multiple choice and you have a good chance of guessing correctly through process of elimination? Lol idk. Sorry I'm really not in the headspace to be even trying to comfort someone right now. I'm really sorry about last night too. I didn't mean to sound all optimistic and positive and shit. I was just trying to somehow help boost your mood but honestly, I probably made it so much worse and made you feel like I wasn't listening and I'm sorry about that. I think I was also trying to do it a bit for my benefit in the hope some of the bullshit I was dribbling would rub off on me. Didn't work though so I highly doubt it did for you and I really am sorry. 

You're not a worthless piece of shit so please don't say that. I know that's how you feel and it fucking sucks but please try to remember that you matter. So much! And to so many of us on here. 

I also don't think you've been lazy, you've just had a lot going on and that's valid so don't brush it off like it's nothing and people are worse off. You matter as well.

I'm not sure what time your exam is tomorrow but I wish you the very best of luck. Just forget about it being an exam and turn it into a good old guessing game, sometimes that's all we can do! I have full faith in you though. You can do it 💪

I think I'm going to sign off for tonight I'm not in the right headspace. I'm safe though

That’s my bad @Lost_Space_Explorer5  and @MB95 sorry about that! It definitely is a big of a grey area, so I was also a bit uncertain about what we should discuss. I think editing the terms out was a good move though! You mentioned that you had spoken to a counsellor about the behaviour in the past, I’m wondering if you would feel comfortable talking with your psychologist about this behaviour? It might be a good idea to get some support from them around it as you might feel more comfortable discussing it in the space with them? I’m sorry to hear that you were feeling like you were not in a good headspace last night. I hope that you were able to find some strategies/activities that helped you feel better. The support that you @Eden1717 and @MB95 provide each other is always so nice to see!

Thanks @Sophia-RO ❤️

edit: whoops I forgot to answer your question um I’m not sure I would be able to bring it up with my psych

Hey @Lost_Space_Explorer5, did you want to talk about your difficulties bringing this up with your psych? Otherwise we can talk about something else instead 😄

Idk I'm not that worried about it I'm more worried about uni right now because I'm actually going to fail 😭

Nooooo!! You're not going to fail!! Don't let yourself think that!! I know it's so much easier said than done and probably doesn't feel like it right now but you have been putting in so much hard work and I have no doubts it is all going to pay off in the end. You're a smart cookie and I know how determined you can be so I know you can do it!! You're so close!!!!

What is it that's making you feel like you're not going to pass? 

No you don't understand my exam is Tuesday and I haven't caught up on lectures and this is maths and I don't understand the concepts and haven't done the practice questions all semester I am actually f***ed

Hmm.. yeah okay, that's not exactly the greatest of situations to be in before an exam, you're right. I'm just trying to think of what might be able to help.. is there anything in particular I can help with atm? 

How much of your grade is the exam worth? Like is it possible to flunk the exam but pass everything else and still pass the subject overall? 

Is there anyone at uni you could talk to for support? Maybe a tutor or someone to go over things with you slowly? Or an AccessAbility service that might be able to help out in some way? Not entirely sure what your options are but like I know for me they ended up having to push my exams and assessments back and extend my semester. It sucks but it's the only way I am going to pass. It's not something I knew was possible and they don't like to make it known for obvious reasons but it might be an option to look into? Idk. You'll obviously have to be able to support why and stuff so just be prepared for that! 

In the meantime, what can I do to help? I'm not super great with maths, depends what it is, but I'm also happy to try and help if I understand anything. I'm so sorry you're in this position. I can imagine you're pretty stressed and not getting much sleep?

No I don't think anyone can help I don't know why I'm posting on here. I don't have good reasons to be so behind they aren't going to let me do my exam later. The exam is worth 65% so it's not looking good. It's linear algebra do you know anything about linear algebra 😂

Hi @Lost_Space_Explorer5 

Long time no speak! I hope you are well and I'm sorry to hear about your exam situation. I just wanted to check in about something you said - you said you don't have good reasons to be behind. I just wanted to check what your reasons for being behind are...do you mind sharing? I'm just thinking that sometimes we can minimise what we're doing through, and I'm wondering if this may be occuring for you at the moment, and whether you may really be entilted or deserving of special consideration. Do you think your mental health struggles, or COVID, or caring for someone, could have impacted your ability to do the coursework or impact your ability to sit the exam? If so, I'd highly encourage you to consider applying for special consideration. If you can get a letter from your GP, or mental health professional, it should be sufficient. I appled for special consideration in my honours year because of some personal things that happened, and at the time I questioned whether I deserved it, and now in hingsight, hella yes I did, but it's hard to recognise it in the moment.

Hey guys thanks for your messages I don't have it in me to reply fully atm but I don't think I deserve special cons and even if I did I can't get in to see my GP for a week. I've spent the entire day in bed avoiding doing anything because I'm so tired and have given up. It's my own fault I'm in this situation I procrastinate too much and took on too many subjects this sem 

Hey @Lost_Space_Explorer5 please feel free to take your time in replying to everyone. Burn out is a real and serious thing and sometimes we just need to look after ourselves. Sometimes we have the best of intentions and want to take on a lot at once, wishing and hoping that we can take it all on. There's no blame for that, try to be gentle with yourself and give yourself a break. Procrastination can be a stress managing tool. It seems counterintuitive to procrastinate to manage stress as it's the stuff that we put off doing that piles on the anxiety. Sometimes we just need to rest, let our rest be our best friend and find a new plan going forward. Is there a way to decrease your workload for next semester?

I am sorry you are in this situation mine is similar with not having done enough of the course work hopefully you can work something out but try not to be too hard on yourself, sorry i am not much help atm. 

Oh gosh, okay nope. I haven't seen that kinda maths since highschool! I just had a quick google and not sure how much help I can be, especially at this time of night! I might have another look in the morning for you if you like cause I actually used to be pretty good with maths. I mean, it's not up there now but maybe if I look into it it might come back. In the meantime, do you know if your uni has access to Studiosity? It's a 24/7 online tool for uni students. I know you can submit assessments for proof reading and I'm almost certain they also offer free tutoring on there.. might be worth checking out? I've attached the link here for you in case you wanna give it a try and see. 

https://www.studiosity.com/howitworks

There was also a really amazing free online maths tutoring program I used to use but I'm struggling to remember the name of it so will have a think and get back to you on that one! 

I know Tuesday isn't far away though so am really feeling for you right now and wishing there was something I could do!!! 65% is a little on the brutal side!!!! I'm really not quite sure how best to help I'm sorry 😔 

If there is something I can do, or if you just want to talk about how it's making you feel I'm here to listen and help as best as I can but I'm really sorry. I wish I could take some of the stress away from you. Do you think maybe the general exam anxiety is also getting to you? Like is there a chance you could pass but you're brain is making you focus on what you haven't done and therefore fooling you into thinking you're going to fail? Idk. I'm certainly hearing you and I know it's really not a pleasant place to be sitting in and I'm sorry you are. 

I know absolutely none of what I have said tonight has helped in any way and I'm really sorry for that. I'm a bit off with the support atm and should probably just stay off here. I do really feel for you and genuinely wish there was something I could do to help. Please try not to blame yourself though because it's been a full on semester and you have done your best and that is what counts at the end of the day!! I'm really hoping you don't fail, but if you do that is also okay. It will suck and it will be frustrating and every other shit word under the sun, but as long as you have tried your best that is all that matters. I know you probably don't want to hear that right now cause I'm even cringing typing it and can feel the annoyance I'd feel being told to try and remain positive when I'm certain there's no way to pass. So I'm sorry. Like I said I'm not great for support atm. So I'm going to leave you something below that I'm hoping at least shows I really do care and am thinking of you and sending lots of sloth support your way 💙