Self compassion
I find being kind to myself really hard. I need to learn some self compassion.
I'm making this thread so I can post stuff and turn it around into self compassion.
For example.
I really wanted to sh today
Self compassion - I did really well not to act on the urge and I've come a long way.
I'm doing my best, and I got through it.
This week has been unusual of all sorts and so this change in routine hasn't been kind enough to my anxiety/depression. But I'm trying to put in as much self-care as I can, especially before bed as recently I'm having troubles sleeping at night :/. I have to constantly remind myself each day that I'm only human and so there's only so much I can do at one time.
I might not be good at art, but I'm getting better at both art, and being more positive about my art 🙂
Blah blah is all it is. Go away thoughts and let me play with my dragon!!! 😄
This movie is nearly over. I've been doing so well so far, I can do it. (I want to fucking SCREAM)
Well I finally left the lounge room. No dad, I don't give a shit that it's "sharing". I hate the sound of his voice and I wish my brother had never come back home. No, I'm not sorry I think that.
At least now I can distract myself before bed and please, please don't break down. I don't need this.
Well anyway you dumb brain I don't care about your stupidness and regretful dumbness, I AM happy with my new headphones and I don't CARE what you think because dammit just leave me alone, okay? I'll be where I want to be when I am there, telling me that I'm not constantly is just plain rude and you can just stop it, you hear me?
So there.
I'll be where I want when I'm ready. Not a moment too soon.
I DID stuff today. ME. Sure, I spent the first couple of hours of this morning lying in my bed making my shoulder feel worse but when it came time for my psych appointment I WENT. I went to the store to get markers after instead of before. I checked all the jewelry places then when to the drs, got stuff done and THEN bought something for mum instead of before. I made sure to order lunch so I would eat something AND got myself a little transformers squishy thing before heading home and relaxing with my 4pm lunch/dinner.
I did that. Me. Despite the utter garbage I've been feeling these past few days, I CAN still do things. So screw off voiceless thoughts, I am going to binge cartoons on the weekend and try not to cry about upcoming uni assignments.
I'm having lots of negative thoughts of not being good enough at anything I do, and I'm finding it hard to get anything done today.
But these are just thoughts. All of the evidence is that I am good at what I do, and that I've overcome so many tough obstacles in the past. I can overcome this one too.
But still... it's okay to have utterly bad days. It's okay to feel completely shit more than you feel good. It won't be bad forever. I just have to keep hoping.
@N1ghtW1ng you have inspired me to show a bit more self-compassion. Please know that I am sitting in this dark ditch with you, and we will find our way out 
Why does everything have to be so difficult? It feels like every time I take a step forward, I take a million steps back. I'm tired of feeling down.
But you know what? Today was a good day. Not a perfect day, no. It came with some hard moments, but it was bearable. You might not be at the end yet, you might have a long way to go, but you can see the progress, and even though things still feel pretty shitty, at least you're not in constant pain anymore. Be proud of yourself for making it this far, and persevering through so much. You are worth the fight.
But I have to keep reminding that same self that it takes more repetition than I'm doing.
