So I don't really know how to go about this or what to say and the fact that I feel so dead inside at the moment is not really helping but I am going to try my best and hope it's okay.
I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who has made my time with RO what it has been. You took me in when I needed a place to vent and you’ve given me a safe space to try and let parts of the real me come out that I wouldn't usually let out otherwise. I know I've been a lot to deal with, but I truly do appreciate every single one of you who make this community such a welcoming and accepting space. I can't thank you enough for not giving up on me, even when I have been hard to put up with. I have really loved getting to know you all and have often felt less alone knowing that I can jump on and connect with you all during the dark times so THANK YOU.
Thank you for always being there and for giving me a reason to stay. I am really going to miss this community and the friends I have made on here.
I am appreciative for absolutely every member of this community existing and providing support, but I do want to thank a few people for some specific things they have done (I hope this is allowed?). You are all just as incredible and supportive as each other though, and just because I haven't mentioned you here does not mean you haven't helped me over the years or that I have not appreciated your support. Because I appreciate every single member of this community.
Anyway, I will try my best to keep it short..
@Lost_Space_Explorer5 you totally knew you'd be up first didn't you?! Thanks for being my baby sloth and just having my back no matter what. You have always known exactly what to say and more often than not you've seemed to know me better than I know myself which has sometimes freaked me out but also made me truly feel heard and understood so thank you. Despite my messed up emotions and will to push people away you've stuck by me and never given up on me and you have no idea how much that means to me. Okay I didn't think this was going to turn emotional but now there's some tears so let's leave it there hey cause emotions SUCK and avoidance is key right?! 😂 But seriously. I am going to miss you beyond words baby sloth. Thank you for everything. Your friendship has kept me going in the darkest times and given me a reason to pull through. Don't ever change because you are the most genuine, caring and compassionate human I've ever met (this is totally making you cringe right now, I know, but just let me speak the truth here okay?!) and anyone who gets to meet and know you in real life is just the luckiest goddam person on the planet!! Keep being the mod that you are because RO is so damn lucky to have you!!! And YES you are deserving of being a mod!!!!!! 💙
@Eden1717 quite clearly you were gonna be next lol Ya ready? I know this kinda stuff freaks you out a bit and you don't seem to have ridiculous attachment issues like lost and I (envious!!) so I will try not to make it too sentimental. But thank you for always showing up. No matter how difficult things have been for you, you have always shown up for me without fail. You have listened and tried to understand as best as you could even when you were unable to relate to some of the attachment crap I'd carry on about. Just showing up and being there for me has meant the world to me and made me feel like someone really does care so thank you. You are one of the strongest people I know and despite everything you have been through you still keep pushing through and I truly admire you for that. Don't ever lose your strength. Thank you so much for joining in on the movie last night and just being there. Truly, it meant so much to me that you were able to join us as I know it wasn't easy for you so thank you. Being able to spend my last night on RO with you and lost just meant a lot so thanks for helping to make it happen. 💙
To all the mods out there that have helped me over the years, thank you. There are far too many of you to mention but you all know who you are. Whether you've checked in on me via the forums or email it has helped to know that you've been there when my friends or the staff couldn't. I wish I could thank you all individually but we'd be here all day and I'd 100% be hitting the word limit with this post 😂 I feel like I'm already getting close..! Just know that the work you guys are doing truly does help so thank you. 💙
I do wanna mention @Maddy-RO quickly though cause the other night when you offered to watch a movie with me when I wasn't doing so well just really I don't even have the words for it. But I just really needed that the other night, to not feel alone, and the fact you even offered and then joined lost and I was pretty damn cool! And I still think it's hilarious you watched it with your grandma cause man that movie was ridiculously random and well yes.. different 😂
To all the staff that endlessly support the RO community, thank you. I have no words. I just think you are all the most incredible humans and I don't really know what to say. You have helped me in more ways than one and I cannot thank you enough. I know I haven't always been deserving of your support and that I have been quite difficult to deal with but you have no idea how much I appreciate you all. You make RO what it is. A safe, accepting, supportive and open environment and being able to come here for support has been what has kept me here in the darkest times so thank you. I know I haven't always seemed appreciative of it but I do appreciate you all, so much. You guys work so hard at making us feel heard and supported when we are so alone and you do the best you can to help keep us safe when we feel we aren't able to do that ourselves, so thank you. You are saving lives. Literally. I cannot thank you enough. Again, I think you are all incredible but I do just wanna thank a couple of you individually if that's okay? I really hope this is okay to be doing idk? Sorry. If its not you can change and delete whatever!!
@Bre-RO I honestly have no words. I wouldn't even know where to start but I think you probably know why. I can't thank you enough for everything you have been supporting me with over the years, but especially more recently. I know I have not been easy to deal with and I hate myself so much because I really am trying so hard but yeah anyway. Just thank you so much for everything. For not giving up on me when you so easily could. You have no idea how much your support means to me. 💙
@Janine-RO I'm actually not sure if you're even still here cause I haven't seen you around much? But if you are I just wanted to say thank you. I also don't really know how to say this but you've been there for me a lot in the past when I've needed someone and I remember I'd always love seeing your messages pop up. I especially loved our plant chats and the GIFs you'd always share! Anyway, thanks for always sharing parts of yourself on here with me too. It always made me feel safe to open up to you because you were also willing to share some of your own stories so thank you. 💙
@Emily-RO I haven't actually got to know you very well through posts and stuff but I just wanted to say thank you for joining us on all the games threads. I know you're not the only staff member that plays the games, but more recently when I have really needed the distraction you've been there and it's just been so nice to get to chat with you that way and share some laughs when they have so desperately been needed. I think it's awesome when the staff and mods join in on games with us so thank you. 💙
Now I am sure this is probs reaching the word limit if I haven't already gone over it and am needing to post it over a few posts.. 🙃 But I just want to say THANK YOU to each and every one of you that make up this community. You have given me a place to feel safe and heard and comfortable to try and just be myself and you have no idea what that has meant to me. You've all played a part in keeping me safe and giving me a reason to stay so thank you. I don't really know what I am going to do without this community and am just trying not to think about it because it doesn't exactly end well but I wish you all the very best. I am too scared to say the G word because it hasn't exactly hit me just yet so instead I am just going to say I will miss you all. So fucking much. Thanks for everything and for being my reason to stay. 💙
